Even though I don't have many followers on this blog of mine, I figured I should still update. It has been since September, almost the entire school year since I did an update.
Part of the reason is I can't find my cord for my camera to upload some pictures from the pumpkin patch, 100th day, and other things. The kiddos did look super cute in their 100th day glasses. Wish I could find that darn cord!
I tell you this year has been CRAZY! I think this has been the most difficult year I've had. Granted, I've only been teaching 6 years, but still this one is hard. The reason could be the maturity level of the students; they seem to be so much more immature than any other class I've had. I've got more lying, whining, tattling, and BULLYING than ever before and it never seems to end. Nearly every day I get something new from one of my students of not knowing how to do their work (that we've been doing ALL YEAR) or doing whatever they want when the teacher is teaching, touching other people, hitting, kicking, the works! We've had bullying lessons, good ones, and talked, talked, talked, individually and as a class about how to treat people. It makes me insane. I've realized that the thing that makes me the most angry is when the students flat out lie to my face. That's happened A TON this year, with the same kids. I've come to the point where when I talk to any of my students now about a problem we're having I tell them straight up: "DON'T lie to me!" I think 95% of the time that works now. Whew! I just wish I didn't have to get to that point. It's frustrating. And don't even get me started on parents this year, either. Many of them are great, but there are a few who are adding to the craziness!
Having such hard groups (both of the Dual Immersion classes) seriously made me consider taking a break this year. On top of being pregnant with #2 and wanting so much to just be a stay-at-home mom, those kids in my classes have really got me thinking. Kory and I have decided that I need to teach at least 1 more year so we can save some money to just live on 1 salary. That has been the hardest decision ever for me to make. I'm thankful that my mom and dad are willing to babysit both kids during the next school year but I tell you what--that decision has just wracked my insides! I wish I was a better writer in order to express how this decision has truly affected me, but just know that this hormonal, 7-month pregnant, frazzled, too busy teacher has about reached the end of her rope.
This is where I count my blessings and move forward.
The 2 things I've been most grateful for are:
1) My student teacher--allowing me time to get some other things done and relax a little, and
2) My Heavenly Father who is the only one who really and truly understands what's happening in my heart and how tough this has been for me. He has truly poured out so many blessings upon me and I am always so thankful for his love for me.
I only have one more decision to make regarding next school year, another hard decision. But then after I make that choice, I can work on putting my mind at ease for a little bit and focus on baby girl joining our family and spending the summer with my girls and Kory.
